HOME.

I'm devastated.

I can't find the right words to describe how pathetic my life right now. Down in the last quarter of the year and situations just worsen. 

They told me "bilib kami sayo kasi ang tapang tapang mo" . It makes me feel little good to hear those words but I'm not sure if that's what I really wanted to hear. I've been strong for the longest time and everyone just saw my strength. Behind the curves in my lips, there's a tiny me crying every night, comforting myself because nobody will do that for me except...me. 

But you're there. You saw me even through my darkest times. You share your light with me every time mine is burnt out. You see all my emotions as Valid. With you, I am allowed to be weak, I can cry every time I wanted to and that's what I really need. Someone who will see not just my strong side but will also embrace and accept me in my most difficult times. 

I feel so much pressure. My situation is toxic. My life is a mess. I'm afraid one day I will become a burden too. But Thank you.

for recognizing my life as precious. For allowing me to feel everything I wanted to feel. For seeing my worth and for always hearing me out. There's no other place right now where I wanted to be but you. You felt home to me. 

I promise, I will not give up in life no matter how hard it is. Because of you, I am looking forward with the happiness that life will grant me after all this pain and hoping life with you if it's the heaven's will.